Good Morning Honey:
I dreamed about you again this morning just before I awoke. We were in our trailer house down along the Provo River. You were having chest pains and I had a girl call for an ambulance. I kept telling you "The ambulance is just about here Honey. Just hold on."
I could hear the sirens coming, but when they got to the corner of where we were it turned the other way. I got you into your truck and started down Center Street in Provo to take you to the hospital. I missed the entry to the Emergency. I and when I got to the exit end I pulled in, pulled up onto the lawn and ran in to get someone to come and help us. As I was running back to the truck I yelled over my shoulder "He needs a wheelchair."
When I got to the truck, my niece was talking to you. You were telling her "I'm okay." I told her "He's not okay. It's his heart. He's just always so positive.
One of the male nurses said "Yes. Danny is always positive."
Next, I was back in our trailer house alone. I told myself "He died. I remember he died."
Next I'm walking down the street and I see your truck pulled to the side. Daren is standing at the driver's side window telling some guys "That was a hard job." I see a building and I know that you are in there. "If he's there," I told myself, "I'm going to go up to him and hold him and tell him how much I love him." I walk in and there's this long table full of food. You are standing there. I could tell you just had a hair cut. (or your ears lowered as you would say.) You are wearing your green quilted jacket. I walk up to hold you and you backed up a little. I reached out and held on to your left arm as you said "Be happy. Let's just move forward." Then I woke up.
After a year of not dreaming of you...not being with you, I felt as though I was in a vise and pressure was squeezing me in. After the last two nights of having you in my dreams, that has lifted.
I love you so much Honey and miss you more than words can say. I don't want you to worry about me. I know you have "things" you need to do where you are at and I want you to be happy too. But I will welcome your visits in my dreams anytime.
Today is my mom's birthday. Wish her a happy birthday for me. Tell her I love her.
I love you Far Beyond the 12th of Never.